Palfrey's life

(That's Out-Of-Character for those guessing)

I made a decision today that's somewhat out of sync with my accepted view of myself. I'm not sure how the choice is going to turn out, but I guess I'll find out soon enough. Some long while back someone on here mentioned Cuddle Party (I believe it was greymaiden?). What's that you ask? Well, as the website says, "Cuddle Party is a playful social event designed for adults to explore communication, boundaries and affection". Random strangers, trying to find out a little bit more about themselves, and about exploring things in our "increasingly touch-phobic" (to quote the site) society. The idea had a certain level of appeal, but this was way back. I'd mostly ignored it overall, because it was in the USA, and I'm not. But that's changing, for a brief while in the near future, and given as New York is the first city they started this whole thing in, and I'm going to be there for a few days, I'd been querying the organisers about what dates they were going to be having these things, with a consideration towards going to one of these things. Of course, this being me and getting organised, I'd delayed until today to email my RSVP, and so I'm now on the "wait list" for October 29th, which may well mean that I don't get to go (they try to do things like gender balancing at these things, and so depending on whether they can sort it enough to get down to my place on the list, I may or may not get an invite).

Even if this all works out, I'm still a bit apprehensive here. I'm not exactly what you could call touch phobic, but this thing is still a fair distance outside anything I've ever done before. I've spent a lot of time over the last few years (re)considering a number of my overall choices and options regarding who I am and what I (don't) do, but I've not really made much in the way of jumps like this. Shrug knows how I'll react to one of these parties even if I do get to go along. I don't think I'll freeze, but this is going to be complicated. But it's something I want to do. I suppose I'm only obeying Clarke's second law - "The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible". Only thing is, the impossible keeps changing.

(In other news, my copy of "The Atrocity Archives" turned up. It's very fun. Lovecraftian horror mixed with a spy thriller, science-fiction, computing references, and bits of norse mythology)