Palfrey's life

Some people just have the ability to get you by the short and curlies. Something about them (part of me is tempted to say their .profile) just gets you. They just *can*, they just *do*. Joh is one of those. After a number of times seeing her at Jesters last year (friends of friends and so on) I asked her out over email - hey i'm a coward, deal with it. She responded with an email that I can't find, but something resembling "wrong time, sorry". This is after various of my (on these sorts of issues) honest friends telling me, and my noticing there was something clearly there. ffs, i was pissed off for quite a while, spent some time contemplating actual physical damage (destruction of ashtrays and so on). For those who really know me, they're aware this is a major thing - I've never understood the whole "i'm pissed off ergo destroy things" attitude, its just pointless - beermats and other paper/card things don't count.

So, after dealing with this, and having had various other things like this, and actually had a gf for about 3 months over the summer, I run into her again tonight at Jesters (having gone laserquesting against UWE, and having our arses handed to us on a plate. But they practice, so we have an excuse). She's still the same, I still care about her, she still drives me bonkers. She's still exactly the same person - no change, which is weird. most ppl change in a year. She's still the same probably-bible-humping (but if i was going to overlook that for anyone, it would be her) self. She still has my heart for the asking, I haven't forgotten, I've just vaguely buried it. Frell. *Really* don't need this right now.

(On a nicer note, enjoying GITS-SAC [Ghost In The Shell - Stand Alone Complex], and it has cool end music, which is odd for anime. Listening to it right now)