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Can't focus even slightly. What I want to do with my life is the PhD - *that* I can cope with. It's the little other things that I'm having problems with. They can be grouped into 3 blocks right now
1) The Dutch course - it's hard. I *want* to learn Dutch, but the Delfste Methode is pretty damn intensive. If I was generic MSc/Erasmus student, then I would easily have time to do the work for it. In my work for the PhD, I'm spending the entire working week doing work for that, and at other times I really want to do other things, without having the vast guilt of not doing the additional work that I'm meant to be doing. This sucks.
2) Generic "lack of integration worries" - this is everything from "when the hell am I gonna figure out my housing woes" to "I'm *still* waiting for them to bug me about the follow up to the residence permit crap" to "I should get my passport renewed". Most of this is dealable, and gets coped with in bunches. A minor set of stuff in the wider scope of things, but still a bit stressy.
3) Lack of friends/social interaction - yeah, there's some stuff there, and my current stress is more a matter of I haven't done much of interest in the last couple of weeks. Friday (International Party) and Saturday (Unitech house party) should sort that, but right now I'm a little stressed. Was listening to Semisonic's "Fascinating New Things" earlier. Still waiting to say that line "I'm surprised that you've never been told before, that you're lovely, and you're perfect and that somebody wants you". In a little chunk of revelation (I've told this before to someone actually, but they're not on here) I associate this song with Emily (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
rikrose should know which one I'm talking about). *sigh*. So many missed possiblities.
The International Party has a theme "Pimps and Priests". Now, I did have an idea for a costume, unfortunately I doubt enough people there would get the joke. So I'm currently planning on wearing my loud blue hawaiian shirt (which I haven't actually worn since I broke up with Ruth), and seeing if I can think up some excuse along the lines of either "hip priest" or "colourblind pimp". Pictures of this monstrosity will appear if I wear it.
1) The Dutch course - it's hard. I *want* to learn Dutch, but the Delfste Methode is pretty damn intensive. If I was generic MSc/Erasmus student, then I would easily have time to do the work for it. In my work for the PhD, I'm spending the entire working week doing work for that, and at other times I really want to do other things, without having the vast guilt of not doing the additional work that I'm meant to be doing. This sucks.
2) Generic "lack of integration worries" - this is everything from "when the hell am I gonna figure out my housing woes" to "I'm *still* waiting for them to bug me about the follow up to the residence permit crap" to "I should get my passport renewed". Most of this is dealable, and gets coped with in bunches. A minor set of stuff in the wider scope of things, but still a bit stressy.
3) Lack of friends/social interaction - yeah, there's some stuff there, and my current stress is more a matter of I haven't done much of interest in the last couple of weeks. Friday (International Party) and Saturday (Unitech house party) should sort that, but right now I'm a little stressed. Was listening to Semisonic's "Fascinating New Things" earlier. Still waiting to say that line "I'm surprised that you've never been told before, that you're lovely, and you're perfect and that somebody wants you". In a little chunk of revelation (I've told this before to someone actually, but they're not on here) I associate this song with Emily (
rikrose should know which one I'm talking about). *sigh*. So many missed possiblities.The International Party has a theme "Pimps and Priests". Now, I did have an idea for a costume, unfortunately I doubt enough people there would get the joke. So I'm currently planning on wearing my loud blue hawaiian shirt (which I haven't actually worn since I broke up with Ruth), and seeing if I can think up some excuse along the lines of either "hip priest" or "colourblind pimp". Pictures of this monstrosity will appear if I wear it.
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